Mommy with a poor Body Image

I am a woman. I am a woman who Loves God. I am a woman who loves my husband and I am a woman who loves my child. I am a woman with insecurities who feels defeated most days. I feel I am not glorifying my God, my husband or my son as well as I can. I am on a mission to learn to Glorify God with my reliance on him rather than my accomplishments. I am hoping to achieve my goals, however, I want to do it with a heart and spirit that Glorifies God and not my own will.

Today, I want to focus on my body image. I have been over weight most of my life. When I am not over weight, I am incredibly vain and the weight doesn’t stay gone for long. Knowing what losing weight does to me mentally, I can’t really be upset that I never keep it off. I get obsessive and seem to care more about my changing body than most other things. I would go as far as to say I become my own idol. This is definitely not glorifying to God.

So while I don’t glorify God while skinny, I feel I don’t really glorify him while overweight either. Limited exercise and more than moderate eating is not my definition of stewarding my body well.  God gave me this body and I should be grateful enough to take care of it.

Yesterday, I was sitting talking to friends and noticed a “look” from my husband. He noticed the recent weight that has found its way back to my midsection. I know he loves me no matter what my weight and his “look” was unintentional, but that isn’t enough to spare my feelings. It hurts when my husband is disappointed in me. He is a Godly man and tries to love me unconditionally, but he is only human.

So where do I go from here?

I pray.                                                                                                              

Father, I need your help. I ask you to prepare my mind and spirit for a physical lifestyle change. I ask you to help me keep my eyes and heart on you and not on myself. I pray that you help me make the spiritual changes needed to accept a new lifestyle and body image. I also ask for discipline and self-control as I try and make these changes. Thank you, Father God; I know I cannot achieve this goal without your help.

Now, I do. Change starts now, not tomorrow, not Monday, and not the first of the year.

Wish me luck!!

So, this is my blog, coincidently started on the same day as my new healthy lifestyle.

I am a stay at home mom who is a little new at the job and trying to figure it all out.

 I believe God calls us, as wives and mothers, to steward our bodies and the bodies of our family. This means feeding them healthy meals while trying to eliminate the poisons that are in much of our processed foods. It also means I need to get out of the house and let my son be active, even if it means a little more physical effort on my part.

I also believe God calls me to help steward my finances by saving as much money as I can while keeping my family happy and healthy. I am a DIY type of Gal and I love to try and make products healthier and less expensive.

Thank You for reading my blog. I pray that God was glorified and I was able to give you something good to take with you today.

Stay tuned for my progress, and thoughts and ideas I find on my journey to Glorifying God as a wife and mother.

May Joy Be Full,

Rachel

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